In 2009, I was gifted affirmation cards by Louise Hay from the Nutrition School I was attending.
My work over the next decade became about bringing purity and love to my thoughts about myself.
This was hard work for me but I knew I needed to do it.
In my teenage years and throughout my early 20’s, I was really hard on myself.
I didn’t realize that the stories I was telling myself and rehearsed all day, everyday were hurting me as much as they were.
In fact, I didn’t even know I was telling myself “stories” … I just existed and this is what was happening in my mind - I didn’t even know it.
My old programming looked and sounded like this:- I need to look better… have whiter teeth … weigh less. If only I was 8 pounds lighter…
- My thighs are way too muscular to wear shorts. Pants only!
- I failed. I could do better. I need to do better! I will do better.
- I can’t believe I said that, what's wrong with me? (Shame myself for a week)
- If I had more money … and nicer things … then maybe I’ll be more like “Her” … I’m going to save up…. $100 everypay check - I’m going to do this. (Hustle, hustle, hustle)
- How come she gets to have it all …. and was born into this perfect family… and I have to work so hard for the things she just gets to have? (UGH!)
- Somethings wrong with me. I will never be able to get pregnant. I need to figure this out...
My new programming looks like this:- Everything always works out for me.
- I love my body. I love this vessel that carries me through life. I am in perfect health.
- My legs power my movement and self expression. I am strong. I love how strong I am. I love how I look in shorts and pants!
- I am capable of anything I put my mind to.
- I can do hard things. I am a problem solver. There is no problem I can’t solve.
- When I speak from my heart, my truth touches, moves and inspires.
- My challenges are my opportunities to grow and become the version of ME I aspire to be.
- I love who I am Becoming. I see Her more and more everyday.
- If I mess up, I learn from it and move on. I messed up - so be it. Moving on.
- My messy first draft is good enough.
- My family loves me and I love them.
- I was born into the perfect family that help shape me into the person I am today.
This transition took time.Louise Hay played a big role in my journey of learning to love myself.
Her affirmations helped me to create a habit of looking in the mirror and saying kind things about myself.
Initially, it felt really challenging to look in the mirror and say: “I like myself, I like myself, I like myself, I like myself.” (yes, I did this!!)
To be in the discomfort of my own thoughts was a great act of self love.
To transform my thoughts, took courage, tenacity, REPS and FAITH.
I say FAITH because I had to realllyyyy bring myself to believe that these new thoughts were true!
But overtime, they became my TRUTH.
So remember.... the goal is not to DO the affirmations, but to BECOME them.